Alright everyone, including you little bean, those first 3 months were not easy. The best part was that every week from 6-10 we got to see you grow, we have the little pictures to prove it. The day your dad first saw your heartbeat, he was so happy. He cried. Your dad, as you will find out, is a sensitive man but he does not cry often. We knew it was still going to be a battle but for the first time, there was hope.
You reeked havoc on my body, in ways I did not know were possible. I was hungry, ALL THE TIME, except every time I ate, I was terrified to throw up. Pretty soon I just gave in and realized, that it was a chance I took, it could go either way. In the end, the decision on what to eat, normally came down to what was easier and less gross to throw up. I won’t bore you with those details but if you want to know, one day, you can ask me. When I wasn’t thinking about what to eat, I was thinking about when I might get my next nap and how many hours I could sleep at night. I went to the gym 3 mornings a week, I kept up with my 10 KM run/walks and I went to work as much as I could. The easiest thing was not drinking, for some reason, your little growing body made me think that alcohol was the most awful smelly thing ever. Unfortunately, that only lasted to week 14. The weirdest foods made me feel nauseous. You see, I love Salmon but you didn’t want me to have any, you didn’t want me to have any fish. Seafood was delicious but there has been a boycott on fish for weeks now. Vegetables have been hit or miss… some days we like them, some days we don’t. We love fruit and we eat a lot of bananas! Salads only taste good if someone else makes them for us and pasta, we love pasta. I have never even really liked pasta. One night, your dad came home and I was making mac & cheese, the worst and most unhealthy of all things, he just started to laugh. We ate a lot of pasta those first 3 months. We also ate a lot of tomato sandwiches, ice cream and pickles. We never fully gave up coffee, it tasted so good but we sure decreased the amount of caffeine we ingested. Oh and chips, we ate a lot of chips. I know, it is a lot of information but the important thing is that we made it though and that we didn’t gain to much weight, only about 4-6 pounds. The constant fear of barfing probably helped with that!
The change, it happened over night. Shortly after the new year, as I went from week 12 to week 13, you decided to lighten up a little and let me enjoy eating. I stopped feeling nauseous, I had more energy and we entered the second trimester. Stay tuned for more!